Well, well, well. That is all I have to say about this new year.
I am lingering.
I am closer to being in neutral when I should be at full throttle. I think, however, that now that I am back to work, I will start gaining speed - possibly all the way out of neutral.
You know I have to say that I am NOT lacking drive. I think that as long as DRIVE is around, I might as well figure DIRECTION and SELF- DISCIPLINE will follow. They need to come as a team.....a better team than they are right now, that is. My gosh, if I had all three of them at the same time, I would be up there with Donald Trump! Okay, well maybe if I had that kind of business knowledge too, then I could be up there.
I found that after being off work for the past five days, that I actually missed my full time job. I actually missed it! Do you know why I missed it? Because it is obligating. It obligates me to be some WHERE at some TIME. Because it obligates me, I don't have a problem performing the tasks that have to be performed in order to avoid a reprimand. And since I don't want any problems at all, I make sure that I do my job to the very best of my ablility. All this is bringing me down, let's move on.
My major problem is wondering if I can be self-disciplined enough to get up in the morning and maybe work at what I LOVE to do instead of what I HAVE to do. I wonder if I will get the direction that I need but I have to figure out WHAT the direction is in which I need to move. And finally, I pray that I CAN maintain the DRIVE long enough to make some money and prove once and for all that I can make a living doing the things that I love to do. Oh I am so confused.
I think that the first item on my list is to look at the DIRECTION I can take. I need to SELL my jewelry. I need to LIST my jewelry. I need to PHOTOGRAPH my jewelry. And I need to learn HOW to sell and HOW TO LIST and HOW to PHOTOGRAPH! My tasks are complex, I need some self-discipline.
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I find that motivation comes a lot easier when I build some rewards into my tasks. Like, I get ridiculously happy about hearts on the items in my Etsy store. And when I sell something, well, that's cause for dancing and singing. Someday, when sales start to become routine (I wish), I'll start looking for another novelty or accomplishment to make a fuss over. Every little bit of reinforcement helps keep me on track. :-)
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